Everything on the list - Checked .

I'm having a major breakdown as if nothing makes sense so if you ask me how I'm doing , I would say I'm doing just fine . I would lie and say nothing is on my mind . But when I go out and I sit down and I saw people smiling all around Finally I was force to face the truth . No matter what I say I still couldnt think of any possible way . I can say that my last day of 2011 is magnificent yet again I'm lying . Guess a girl like me have a weak point too . 

Peace be upon us :) Today is Saturday as we all know its the last day of 2011 and the last day I'll cheerish forever . To be honest seriously I'm not a fan of 2011 and If I really could I would turn back those times I wanna be child again I wanna break things even more , laugh all over stupid things , go on a journey everyday , smile eventhough it hurts , I dont wanna hold back any tears and definitely no more regrets . Thats what I wanna do but life doesnt go backwards it keeps on moving forward so what I have to do now is forget the past and see the future . 2012 is gonna be the year I promise this , the year where I wont cry over silly things smile whenever I feel like and laugh like nothing is gonna stop me . I hereby declare myself officially to a Challenging New Year of course its gonna be Happy but we know happy doesnt always drop by it's not gonna be around us all the time . I wont asure you that is gonna be sweet but the journey is worth a thousand miles when you look back .

I know a lot of people have been expecting this New Year 2012 hoping that life would change , but to me its just a new beginning nothing to be brag about . Everyday is just the same , date and time is just a number as a matter of fact 01/01/12 do teach me something that you are given a chance to live your life but remember this always , Just because a day doesnt start out good enough doesnt mean it's going to end up bad - anonymous. Feel that heartbeat in your chest ? It's called purpose . You live for a reason and dont leave without one . Thats it I'm writing too much as I was just taking a break from doing my tons of homework #sigh . I'll be back when my desk is clean *pinkypromise but I dont thinks its gonna be shiny enough :P Ah-haa I almost forgot all those thing my parents said to me , and this is just something I wont let it slip out of my mind and to be share . Have a blast last Saturday :')

 " Do not hope for a New Year to change yourself , If you want to you would have done it few years ago " ♥ Mommy

xoxo ,

NewYear M

Alhamdulillah brrr , nomnomnom hihi Assalamualaikum so yeah well um hey yupp done . Just wanna say that me and my prettiest little bestfriends just had a funfunfun dinner together all five of us except dacyn cause um maybe she's still in Korea *tengokmukasayayangjealousgilanakmatimacamnampak* HAHA panjang gila kan well back to the story we ate at Mr. Kapten Steamboat and Grill #heaven hihi tepuk tangan sikit . Arrived at 5.30 and straight back to home at 8 . Cool much isnt it cause we dont really get to hang out together that much paling lama jumpa pun kat school or tusyen *cehh but definitely we love each other so much till we can read each others mind .

 Lemme tell you something that ----> only your true bestfriend understand you the most , even when you didnt say anything or put on a silent mode they can still figure it out . Thats what special about bestfriend not a word comes out but thousands running through your mind they can still detect it :* And I found them thankyou My Lord :') So at Kapten the decorations sumpah cute and very classy to put it simple memang cun and elegant nice job . The food was great I'm so full cause all I think about was food so anything comes in the name of food I'll be grateful :P see how much I love food ? More than anything - correct LOL . To describe more about Kapten I need my camera but unfortunately since I got back from KL I didnt charge it so yeah so long adios muchos nachos EOS and Hello Nikon thanks to Nadia's camera we captured our memories together <3 Got to wait till Nadee upload it cause patience is the key to success padahal tak ado kono mongono . Got it ? Tapayah pun takpe sebab banyak merepekus tetikus . Thats it nak tengok t to the b to the tv . Kbye Assalamualaikum

Ahhaaa before that enjoy our picture together #walaupun bukan di Kapten hikhok .

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Five Is Awsome but Six Is Even More Awsomer :* Pelam-os 

xoxo , 

Super M

My Jung Il Woo Scheduler :'( Okay so now officially the FlowerBoy I'm watching is done . Totally done and super sad . Stop smiling Cha Chi Soo cause I'm not happy *cair* :/ The ending was mmm - nice . Watch if you wanna know what happened :P toodles 

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And yeah totally absolutely certainly one hundred percent not to forget that I Am 

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Done Kbye nak nangissss ahhhh ceni . Choi Kang Hyuk Onion pergi mano ? T.T tapayah nak gedik sangat I know what you're thinking #Immapyshicpyshco ? Sukahati ahhhhhhh me diediediediedie watching him -,- Oh by the way I fell in love with Shayne Orok new song cepat click his name :) tee-hee Goodnight have a blast

xoxo , 

M-ChaChiSoo<3

#That Awkard moment when you said "Hi" to your friend but then you put down your hand because there was no reply . One word ----> Awsome . Thankyouvmuch . Keep rocking your world doing whatever you're doing . I wish you the best I could \m/ 

xoxo , 

M

I know I know Here I am writing again . Screw me . Anyway I think I am forever will be addicted to FlowerBoyRamyunShop seriously no doubt #Forever . You can watch it too at youtube since I've downloaded it too , I cant stop myself from clicking the replay button -_- Not to forget I'm gonna have to warn you that this drama may cause - dark circles *panda-eyes* lack of sleep , loss of appetite and huge amount of weight loss breakouts procrastination and others effect too . I cant stop myself swear to God . I am planning on going to bed after watching the 11th episode But effing yeah after the preview How Am I Supposed to Clearly Shut Myself Off and Calm Down :( Sheezzzz kebab tomorrow pinky please with cheeries on top be nice and let me finish this drama . I'm sorry M I just couldnt stop just like my Jung Il Woo said " Dont just step on any poop , Its my poop " :( Two words - Effing Hot . Done Kbye 

xoxo ,

M Lost in Kdrama

It's said that after a person is born , they will meet approximately 30,000 people before they die .

Of those , the number of people you'll meet and work with at school is 3000 .  

And of those , you'll intimately know 300 people .

Among all those encounters , it's said that Allah has arranged a special one for you .

One made from before you were born .

However that bond of fate is invisible to everyone .

And yet that unseen person in your destiny is connected to you somehow .

Thats why when you found them in your life .

You'll say I fell in love with you the moment I saw you . 

xoxo ,

M Red Thread 

Its been a long time since I on my laptop , check my emails and social networks , see my parents nor going out with my friends . All I've been doing is spending my precious time alone in bed since I just got back from KL and then back to Muar yesterday life has been pretty much how to say it - nice . Getting away from people as much as I could would probably be my bestest hobby right now enough said . I'm sorry if I didnt reply any texts or accept any calls not that I dont want to , its just Complicated maybe I would do it when I'm super energetic - Sorry . 

To be honest nothing seems real for me , nothing feels right or goes the way it should be But I truly am grateful each day . Thankyou Allah for being there every second when I really need You come rain or shine I can always count on You and once again I thankyou because I'm still standing here fighting everyday of my life against challenges . I am seriously absolutety aware that my school holiday will end next week which is a total #ughhhscrewme and the notbestpart is to know that 2012 will be my last year of school not that I'm unhappy of course I'm glad its just you know I cant handle big thing such as duhhh dudee -,- SPM kot so yeah I declare myself right now super freak out and definitely school cant handle awsome me *silamuntah* :P Ahh-haa one more thing I didnt buy any any I repeat ANYTHING for next year guess I'm the lamest one boo-me . I'm too lazy one word . 

I got to go and catch everything up from the beginning . Let go of everything that sickens or worrying or whatever unnecessary things I kept thinking about . I wanna go back to where it belongs , back to the time when I feel like everything in life is just perfect and it feels right , Where I dont have to worry about whats coming next about yesterday or tomorrow , Where I feel safe and secure and knowing that I did everything as best as I could - those were the days . I learnt something about life when I fell so hard I didnt even realized what's happening around me ,  life is like surfing you fell off knocked down beat up with everyone but you need to suck it all and get right back on track . Push yourself everyday cause its a ride you cant turn backwards and everything you left behind is something you couldnt take back anymore . That is how life works . Better cheerish everything before you end up losing something or someone you would never thought it would happen . Close your eyes and seek yourself through it 

xoxo,

The M 

Yo yo whatsuppp peeps , I mean Assalamualaikum :') hihi So since today is the day me and liah got bored we kinda did this :P I know mostly I looked like sheezz but yeah who gives a damn pffttt -,- Randommmmm picturess :] 

WARNING : Please dont scroll down if you cant stand the annoying-ness which is a part of me . Thankyou for your understanding , Appreciate it much :)

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Say Cheeseeeeeee :}

Uh-Oh ! Looks like Mariam Ibrahim got a brilliant idea #cehhh screw me

*Peaceoutyobrosss 

*We're back reminiscing our childhood the sweet old times where we would smile for hours about anything :']

Spy tak laku . Happy Birthdayy to me and liah cause we were born on the same date *tearsofhappiness*

Thankyou for the teddiesss :' me lafff them mucho :*

 

SPM candidates 2012 pfftttt -.- I cant believeee this is happening and please excuse me while I puke

Imma getting fat this sch holidays and the fact that its true hurts a lot mannn :'( Geeshhh

So thats it , If you managed to scroll down you've made it and that just proves that you're too awsome even awsome-ness can defeat your awsome osem ness get it . Nahhh toodles :* Have a blast weekend from us 

xoxo , 

Eksaiteddd M

Oh hello well hi there yes you yupp you , remember this one ? 

I mean this song The One That Got Away , so I've been thinking about it lately and you know what I wanna tell you that -------> Congratulations and a big round of applause for making me believed in you TWICE . All I wanna say is that I'm not Katy Perry and obviously I'm not N and with my outmost confidence tonight I'm proud to say that "In another life , I would NOT make you stay cause I really hope I wont have a chance to meet you nor to be glad to know you . Seriously I hope we dont ever ever met each other so that I dont have to say you were the one that got away " Pinky please read this with a big grin on my face , I'll be alright just not tonight but someday . Toodles and Cheers to our new life ahead :)))))) 

xoxo ,

the new M

Recently to be honest I kept thinking about us , about what happened last time . Sometimes I just wish I knew what went wrong between us I really do , sometimes I just hope I realize which part of me that change so much until you act this way . Most of the time I really I hope I can be inside your soul , seeing myself through your eyes and understand what's your heart desire . I always wonder what thoughts that you secretly keep by yourself and what is your feeling towards me ? Is it love or hatred ? The truth may hurt me a lot whatever it is in your mind but having the chance to know what do you really think of me is everything I would gave up just to know . 

My friends are the closest people next to me beside my family , you guys are the second most important thing in my life and Knowing that all our silly moments together , all the laughter that we shared together all those joy is a pure lie it would kill me inside and out . You may not know this cause I always keep it to myself everytime you hurt me bit by bits I always said to myself  "you're my bestfriend whatever happens whatever it is you always will be" :'/ And now I seemed to doubt it are we still the bestfriends we used to be ? Pulling your face whenever I tried to talk to you or when I am always your second or last option , proved me that you hated me all this while and I'm just too dumb not to notice that or so much in love that I didnt care about it as long as you're there . 

Just so you know I tried everything to make you smile the way you did to others , to make you feel happy when we both were left alone and not feeling awkward towards each other but yeah I admit I just dont want you to hate me or me losing you I guess the memories of us being friends is just too strong to hold on . But now if you think that letting go of our friendship is the only option you could think of then on my behalf with all due respect , I Siti Mariam Ibrahim clearly and officially shutting myself off from your perfect life . I'm sorry I wasnt enough nor a good friend to you all this time if you want me in your life with a sincere hoping feeling do change please cause I'm just tired . Have fun bestie 

Dont even say hey or whats up cause I dont wanna know how you're doing and especially dont even call me pretty please with cherries and sprinkles on top . Terima kasih , semoga anda berbahagia bersama N :) 

xoxo , 

M the last goodbye

Hey Assalamualaikum :') So this one is dedicated to my bestest old friend since primary school I love you okay so I hate to see you cry because I feel like I'm the worst bestfriend ever to stand there and watch you in pain . I felt hopeless when I saw you cried the other day for some lame jackass who doesnt even appreciate you . He's just too blind to see that you're too worth it and please dont ever cry for him again you need to be strong kay promise me this . Find someone who will treat you with utter respect , someone who will honor your morals and someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest . Ditch his sorry what  makes he think that you'll ever forgive him . He made you cried remember ? He played you real hard he doesnt even text you for like one week ? Without no reason at all . Who do he think he is some sort of royal blood ? Oh come on gimme a break . A guy like that doesnt even know how lucky he is just to have you . So think wisely make up your mind , is this the kind of guy you want to be with ? You still have a long journey ahead you'll meet some guys and eventually move on so dont worry . Whatever it is your decision I'll always be your back up dont hold your tears dont lie to me and dont ever tell me that you're okay when I know youre not I can see right through your eyes kay babe . You'll find happiness someday trust me just dont ever give up right now what you should do is clear up your mind stop texting him get some space and focus for next year our upcoming SPM . Its not the right time to think about some lamedude you deserve someone better in the future   I promise you this . Rmember what I said " If you arent being treated right by a guy , dont wait for him to change ".

Hey Assalamualaikum I guess i'm back peeps . So , I havent been writing for almost one week and I survived :') haha but actually I went to Addmaths camp cause I suck a lot in Maths well not that bad actually but real bad though I used to love maths when I was little and until now but somehow it turns out bad Idk why Geeshhh get it ? peaceyo . The camp was held for 4 days since 3rd December to 6 at UniKl , Pasir Gudang so yeah it was awsome and farrrr farrrr away beyond my expectation . The facilitators there were so damn nice and heck yeahh annoying much like seriously they even compared us girls to guys like a lot everyyy singleee timee *tearsofannoying-ness* lemme give you an example : Budakk lelaki makan sendawa , budak perempuan ? jadi ular sawa HAHA --' next Budak perempuan ni poyo lahh tau tak poyo tu ape ? bukan cantik tapi pondan yang original err -,-  Lelaki sangat baik malam malam nanti buat qiamullail tak mcm perempuan , malam jeh tukar jadi segala P you know all hantu starts with capital P like ponti , pocong , penanggal and so much more . Haha I laughed a lot there and it was fun no doubt except the double face facilitators :P Me and my girls suka gila menganjing ayat feci like this ----> Sukahati sayalah , tah pape jeh perempuan ni and etc . LOL much and the last day there was the funniest happiest and bedekakness with my girls :') we laughed a lot , we stalked the guys mostly ex-classmates from their dorm actually not like stalked stalk we just you know scared them and stuff HAHA sorry guys and we wanted to hang a long upstairs to the wide open balcony eating junkiess and having girls talk but ade mama guard which I acted like an idiot by running I was owned BIG TIME BRO and aten pah ida were following me with their towels and pretended like we actually wanna take our bath like 1 a.m. in the morning but sadly we cant find the stairs haha pity us :/ ? FTW we are awsome KUTU'S haha happymoments :') My girls we slept at 3 a.m during the last day we did yoga we danced in the room we lay in our bed taking pictures nd stuffs I was actually happy and I realized they're my family no matter what happened I will always love them and my babies yg tak pergi its okay we'll have a great time together all of us kay so no worries I missed you . Cheers to Addmaths which is gonna be easy I think I hope so Ameen and to my whole new life ahead of me without anyone ruining it :') may Allah bless them in whatever they're doing right now . Lots of love , LOL 

M , 

The Lovely Kutu Girl Group