Dear heart many people say that you are the strongest organ in the body ,

It is so easy to see the dysfunction between you and me cause the ditch between us is so damn deep . I've built a wall around my heart and I promise I'll never let it fall apart. Everyday , with every worthless word we get more far away . The distance between us makes it so hard to stay , but nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe It hurts but it may be the only way .

So tell me if the heart is so strong why does it break so easily ? :'(

         I was looking through old albums and pictures and I saw this one above that makes me remember how I miss the old times the old memories the old me and so much more in life could give . I should have treat myself the way I want it to be , I should live to the fullest and to the max isnt it . Be happy break the rules and stop thinking about others who fill their heart with so much hatred rather than to love what they have . I was busy thinking how should I live what should I do in the future that I almost forgot to cheerish what's beside and around me , so from now on I'm gonna laugh as much as I breathe and enjoy everything life has given to bits .Thankyou Allah for showing me that life has much more to offer , you just have to seek it through . 

Ya Allah , jadikanlah aku wanita yang solehah yang baik di antara yang terbaik dalam mendapatkan sesuatu yang terbaik dariMu Ameen :')

never gonna give you up

never gonna let you down

never gonna run around and desert you

never gonna make you cry

never gonna say goodbye

never gonna tell a lie and hurt you :')

well hello and may Allah bless you :) gonna post some pictures tomorrow insyaAllah cant wait .

Happy Diwali to boys and girls have fun . 

mybusuk + mystinks + no heart feelings = me being bored 

+ me being alone = me fed up + me tried stinks didnt = bye

please dont ever ever try to solve the following equations it will break the wall of your heart and damage your respiratory system , trust me it sucks to stuck there . exam mood is so over but still my mind cant even rest at peace yo . even when i wanna go to sleep i still remember addmaths until i got a serious major headache when i woke up . one word : S*CKS describe it perfectly . well ladies and gentlemen , boys and girls please pray so that at least no F for my paper :/ haihhhhhh me lost a pen = me got no life . now i know the meaning of being helpless that is when you're stuckkkk with the time and the only thing you can do is to think how to get the correct answer :'(

I'm so happy for you cikgu fifi Selamat Pengantin Baru cikgu comel :) hihi 

Semoga Berkekalan Forever and May Allah bless your marriage .

p/s : examination week please just go away from me . i cant even think of you anymore . form 4 is no way of neither joking nor relaxing seriously . gettaway from me paper sheezzzz . sick and tired of everything :/

things do change

short post :-

God i have final exam tomorrow sheezzzz mmg sah takut :/ tak ready unprepared blablabla haihhhh :/ Goodluck and All the best to all form 4 students . InsyaAllah we're gonna make this through the end and then cutiiiiiiii cant wait tehee :) bubui facebook , blog and so on . Dear Allah do help me , make me smart please ? Ameen .
Pray for me and Allah will help us both k ? insyaAllah .

xoxo ,

M in terror .

A woman : without her , man is nothing :') 

Thankyou mama for always being there for always giving me your full attention for making me at peace when the whole world really scares the hell out of me , for pouring so much undivided and most love to us siblings , for hugging me when i was crying like a baby , lost and tired of everything at nights , for entertaining me when i'm bored and for accompanying me when i feel like crap , and most of all for loving me as your daughter and for accepting me above all of my imperfections . I'm sorry i wasnt perfect enough :/ One day i'll make sure you're gonna be proud of me Ameen . Thankyou for raising me and for bringing me up when i'm down.

I love you to the absolute max Mama even words cant describe my feelings You're the best mother in the world ever and no one could ever replace you in my heart  .

xoxo , 

your fav princess :')

talking to you on the phone makes me miss all those things we did together its been forever since you got back to Germany , all those moments we shared and the bittersweet ones too :/ remembering it makes it harder to think and to accept the fact that you're so far away from me and us as a family . Now I know thats why people said that blood is thicker than water :'( i really do miss our conversations and those fun stuff we did .

Remember this one :- 
Rumah yang kau duduk tuh rumah Kang Suman , Dia tuhhhhhhh membelaaa . *part dia sampai sini jeh but we extend it sampai ke iklan lain* HAHA
Bela ape ? Burung .
Burung ape ? Burung layang-layang and so on 
# the story was kitorang menganjing cerita Flat13A kt astro asyik tayang jeh smpai dh terhafal skrip dia --' LOL we really did make a good team together (: high 5

when i sent you to Changi Airport i dont really wanna let you go sbb i'm gonna be ForeverAlone kt rumah being the only child left , no one's gonna lay beside me every night , no more stories to be told or shared with , no more crying together just because of a small lie we've made to hurt each other or to see who's MommyDaddy's fav daughter . *competitive gila budak nii * At the end of the day , i really watched your back when i saw you entering the Departure part and it really hurts me the most but i didnt cry cause i know you wont have the guts to leave us in Malaysia . God knows how I miss you sister :/ When i was sitting in my room I can even imagine you're there combing your hair and the smell of the perfume you wore was still there in my mind but then time flies so quick that i moved on but never ever a day passed on by that i didnt pray for you nor forgot about your presence . I miss us as a big happy family I really do , well a part of me doesnt wanna grow up just yet *tears flowing* I'm sorry .
# Comeback please this december and dont forget to bring my nailpolish :P 
miss you this big muahhhhhhhhhh.

xoxo ,

your most loving sista ever a.k.a Baby P :(

I watched this for today (: seriously Awsome to the Max yo you wont regret watching it #sumpahtaktipu . i want Juno as a Boyfriendddd please :P lol arent they the sweetest and the youngest couple ever . sah dalam Islam mana boleh buat mcm ni but still for other religion it will inspires teenagers and parents out there which happen to be facing the same problem . Youth need to voice out their thoughts someway so do hear them :)


ratings : 5/5 hihik 

xoxo , 

M tak study --'

we could be happier if you dont think too much about his feelings . 

9 . 10. 2011 is the day SUNDAY

degil 

stubborn

hati baru

tak dengar cakap

pemalas

I've said so

told you

bagus sangat lah tuh

blablabla and so on 

#I've had enough K . I'm the one suffering here so dont bother to add in anymore . I'm the one in need not you so stop acting like you understand so much but you're not even feeling it . Sympathy and Empathy is a two different words which gives two whole different meanings . So take note find a dictionary and search :'(

Conversation is Sweet :)

girl : who do you like ?

boy : i'm not telling unless you tell me first .

girl : oh okay , how about we write it down on a paper ?

boy : okay sure .

boy : i have a question .

girl : yes what is it ?

boy : how to spell your name ?

#die.

so yeah just got back from school :/ tiredly Ohsemmmm today . haha even thou junior'sss are taking their PMR but we as seniors especially form 4 and 5 sacrifices a lot fr you . Example : we still go to school just like you guys are but in a different way of uniform lah kan you know cause we're osem peeps like that #sentap . haha so today learnt History , Chemistry and recess and then sambung Physics *sigh* hardddddd enuf k :( Haihhhhh i gotto gotto study but yeahhh lazy pants *peaceyo*. Anyway lepak with @aten,esah,wan,nunad and mahsuri today . We played jumped in the rain haha seriously like a 4 year old kid , ate roti canai at the back and almost nearly run by a car LOL . pakcik pleaseeee its a zebra crossing K take note :P so F yeah i had lotssss of funfunfun thought of going to Tutti Frutti today but somehow tak jadi and so on . Neberminddddd after exam can lepak all the time right now i got go to tusyen Mathsss so toodles earthlings :') Life is wonderful you just have to keep walking to see what's in it xD bubui & peace be upon you .

xoxo , Major M

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and your married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy
It ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

33 or hundred times doesnt give a shit to me right now . All those words you're saying is like a river flowing from a fake mountain . From this moment onwards consider yourself as a stranger . Note that and Please get away from my life . I was once happy without your existence ruining it all . Dont even say you're sorry it wouldnt change a thing .

barely breathing , M

just got back from Seremban :/ whattaday . gastric and headache really kills isnt it . God help me go through this please :( 

Q & A :

what do you feel right now ?

one word explains it all . sucks

are you okay ?

by saying im dying inside would you even frigging care ? move on

are you happy ?

im the happiest girl in a whole wide world mannnnnnn * you wish * 

what do you love most right now ?

i love my friends right now cause you know what my friends are real , we share our dreams our goals our heartmoments our laughmoments our everything our what and stuffs and i will never ever ever leave my friends alone . aint it sweet GirllFriendssssssssssss

now i really understand how it really feels , thanks for reminding me how much it hurts and for forgetting it :') you've done a real god job round of applause chair person . i salute you babe