So we fight through the hurt 

And we cry and cry and cry and cry

And we live and we learn 

And we try and try and try and try

there's this one dude * jgn terasa sgt eh kalau kau baca pon best jugak 'STALKER' . he keep saying bad things to other people making them down . but you know what you're just the same . dont criticises people if you YOURSELF are not good enough compared to the person . kau nii dah kategori  -----> 

a pot calling a kettle black :P opps sorry tak jaga adab pertuturan . 

kamus dewan bahasa dan pustaka : 

'a pot calling a kettle black' in bahasa melayu is  'paku dulang paku serpih mengata orang dia yang lebih' kalau kau tak faham jugak no point kau amek subjek bahasa melayu spm 2012 nnt . haaa lagi satu ada peribahasa nii ' siapa makan cili dia yang terasa pedasnya ' im so proud of myself being a malay student yang kaya dengan budi bahasa dan adab sama ada dari segi pertuturan mahupun sosial . do take a look of yourself in the mirror thankyouu :)

thankyou to some of my classmates and some teachers which had been worried enough asking me all day long at school . whats wrong here i am telling you lies which is i'm okay so dont worry :) i'm gonna stay strong as i could. to rara and ruru and suri you girls seriously back me up and ily fr being there when i need an energy booster and a shoulder to lean on . i have a new nickname which is riri and i kinda like it a lot . a round of big applause to santhiya and priyanka fr calling me that and to sri turka sorry i've been sulking all day and ignore your questions sampai you said this to me ----> 'haa baru nampak your smile' thats very sweet of you girl . to azri no need to ask and do such silly things fr me to laugh and smile you're the JOKER and you always do . to ijat you're my best guy buddy ever and i promise you i'll fight and be strong enough . when i'm back being me we'll do the triple T K A okay ? mama iloveyousofreakingmuch and i know that i can count on you sorry fr causing all the drama tears at bilik kh tadi sincerely your daughter .  thankyou to anybody fr standing by my side . sorry again and again fr all the moody stuffs i've been acting and i'm not mad at anybody . okay yes there's someone i'm mad to but i'm telling YOU this once so take note on it . every single drop of tears will be your biggest mistake ever i repeat EVER . get a life dude i'm not causing you any trouble so please stop ruining my life before i've gone mad and there's no turning back between US . you are playing the game ? well i'm in and its ON . this is me and no one's gonna change that . THANKS  ijatjais on your advice. i'm lucky enough to have such kindhearted people around me :) so to a FREAK out there watch your back and i'm so gonna watch karma to F you up after all the lies you've made you S.HOL  BTW yes i can be very mean and say crappy things and do lots of cursing if i'm totally berserk . i'm not sorry to you pitiful creature kdonethanksandbye (:

lots of love 

xoxo

currently im having bad moods and stuffs . FYI i deactivated my facebook account so tak payah lah sibuk sibuk nak risau aku block kau ke tak dekat fb kan GET A LIFE  . i had fever at school today and you know what maybe im gonna change everything yes everything . THE NEW siti mariam ibrahim the girl which is hiding behind a shadow ----> thats me :) i tried my best to satisfy everybody but it wasnt enough so here i am telling myself to jaga my adab sosial and shut myself up . you can say and do whatever YOU like now as you please . go ahead and i wish you the best to F up everybody's life like that . congratulations fr breaking the strong wall i've built no one ever did and you're the BEST ONE ever . 

as requested from someone :P

see the pictures above . as you can see there's a dude . he's not even a superhero by saving the world and all that kind of stuffs BUT he's one of the best superhero i've ever met . i present youuuuu :

omel man :P

HAHAHAHA okay LOL not a very muscular name but its cute enuff hihi

 description of him :

• he love his GF much :P 
• he likes to be called gedik and mengada
• he's caring enough
• he loves to smile *most importantly
• he hatesss waking up early in the morning nd bila angkt call this is what he's gonna say -----> ' iye iye i bangun nii ' BUT the real thing was he is still on the bed pemalas . hahaha
• he loves RED striking RED . black . blue and he hates pink like THE PINK yg striking tuh
• he loves watching television :P thats his job
• he hates eating medicine just like i do . HIGH FIVE man
• he likes simple thing and simple stuff  
• he's sarcastic and annoying sometimes bile buat jokes but still one of the best actor :P drama dude haha
• he lovesss little cute rabbit hihi
• he's not secretive 
• he loves to eat kan BUNCIT lalala :P

hee okay i dont know what to write i think thats all . anyway thankyouuu so much fr being there through everything and everyday . sorry fr all the wrong sayings and doings i didnt mean them all :) 143 omelman

xoxo awsome me

i got my answer already 

congratulations and let me give you a round of BIG applause . thankyoumuch

i'm telling you this once and for all . ahhhh  michuu dem much sister seriously . i havent see you like a year and its been like 2 or 3 years since your last raya with us as a whole family :'( this is so sad im gonna cryyy . sheeshhh hajar.ibrahim come back from germany pleaseee although i want you to be there so that i can have a niceee and sweet vacation at italy or any other place but seriously no one or no place can replace you . do come home this may puhleaseeee :( we dont fight but we do lots of type like menganjinggg hihi and i missed every one of it . i miss our stupid jokes together . giving people silly names and blablablah . no one can take your place and nothing will change between us okay . just now you called me to say hello but it has been ages since your last call not that you didnt call at all but most of the time you talk with mom and dad only but today you called me :') isnt that sweetsawitsewet enufff idontknow what to talk and it feels awkward . daaaa of course i'm shy sbb dalame tak bebual gebang haha and then a few mins later we're back as SISTERS . HO-YEAHHH :( so thats all i want you to know that things may have change and you have michael :P wekk fyi he's a big boy and a man already i'm your tiuttt little sister lahh wey . michaa ihateyoubrother haha nono *jkjkjk jealousmuchbolehhh -.- kdone enjour our pictures last summer TOGETHER :'( come home sooooon

daddy so coooool tee-hee i'm still his fav sistahh :P

lalala me and you shoooo shweeet HAHA xD

bdk baju hitam vs bdk baju biru (:

motif : look closely at the spec :P me and hajar hihi

la familiaaaa xoxo muahmuahhhh :P

okay maybe some of the pictures looked gorgeous :P LOLOLOL especially hajar :P pehhh kembang mu wekkk so here i am saying that imichuuberrymuch :( and the others too . along and eka lalala sistersforever okay . tcare at germany toodles baby . eh lupe nak bg tau td adik pinjam your lab coat fr english ORAL hihi peace :P

xoxo 

awsome me

i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing . what am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you and what am i supposed to say when i'm all chocked up and you're okay 

tee-hee assalamualaikum :) jwb ily tk jwb eff off :P HAHA kcool *jkjkjk

so today was dem dem dem awsome much . me arissa and her sch friends watched never say never in 3D bebeh i REPEAT 3D at ksl city o m j :P LOL haha ksuperbcool and funfunfunfun . bieber was sooooooo hot haha k right now i'm having a bad fever of bieber . arhhhhhh and there's a girl write on cardboard or something like this ----> justin drew bieber please marry me tro-LOLOLOLOL okay SO TRUE and i know thats not gonna happen but nothing is impossible right by the way you would never say never to justin :P after ksl city we girls gerak pergi tutti fruitti at sutera which is alya kistina's DAD shop . he owns that place cooooool enuff and we got tutt frutt for FREE . yeayyyy US :) haha thankyou qis nice to meet ya girl . we hang around at the playground having some fun and you know what i remember that kindergarten back then was so awsome and i miss every single time of it :') NURAZREN if you're reading this then BE JEALOUS NOW . muahaha xD okay that is very mean of me lalala hee sorry baby im just kidding . next time we'll go watch another movie together okayokay :) goodnight peeps nd ILOVEYOUBIEBER haha :P seriously tears of joy . you BELIEBERS ROCK THE WORLD . i wanna go to the concerttttt peh-leaseeee hihi

xoxo 

bieber girl's day out :') 

the next time someone new talks to me i would say this : sorry but i dont need a part time people around me in my life . either you're gonna stick with me forever OR as you can see there's an exit door right under your nose . use your brain and find yourself an exciting new activities rather than being a hypocryte . goodbye peeps 

maybe sometimes i shut people out . maybe i'm too emotional too over-reacting too hyper too dorky or maybe too nerdy i guess . Just once though i would like to be the first person someone calls . Just once i would like to be the only one person they want to hang out with and share their secrets . Just once i want to feel like someone really cared about me . Just once i want to hear someone is calling me their bestfriend without any hesitation . Just once i want to be your favourite girl in the whole wide world . Just once that is the only thing i want the most . i would really love to be someone's number ONE and the person that came across their minds . AS IF and i know that i'm nothing compared to you thankyoumuch .

when your bestfriend whisper to another friend IN FRONT OF YOU and laugh . best feeling ever and NO i aint wanna hear any of it girlfriend . you will go like this :

HAHAHAHAHA kbyee

spongebob : what do you usually do when i'm gone ?
patrick : i'll wait for you to come back

the sweetest thing a friend could say to you . look around and you'll be grateful for it :')

saya nak balik rumah 

saya nak balik rumah 

bagi tahu dunia saya nak balik rumah 

biar kan hujan basuh semua kesakitan dari semalam .

p/s : HAHAHA tro-LOLOLOL seriously . 

sing this malay version of im coming home :P

gubahan lagu drpd :

aneesanasir & mariamibrahim 

location : canteen  

haha seriously i dont know what to write sorry K :P i'll make it up to you later. maybe tomorrow i'll get some ideas or at least inspirations o-Kay :) anyway nothing much happened today . go to school as usual i woke up late HAHA i was dem sleepy okay its not my fault entirely lalala . study some subjects and ILOVEBIO today eventho awal-awal i was pretty ngantuk but at the end before class dismiss cikgu ajar about cell divison using HANDS . coooooool much we all 4STA1 do it dengan bangga and gaya like USOP :P oh yeahhh haha . and then english class YEAYYYY ! LOL sir was totally cooool and superB awsome with all those funfunfun games and his attitude . i totally am sure without no doubt that im gonna miss you teaching us . i'm gonna miss all those times when you asked us the whole class to write a secret letter and read it all ALONE LOL- haiku poems - spellingbee - jumblewords - spellitrightchallenge . ahhhhh iloveallthisgames :') after class i sat with amirul ninot mai and tasya at the canteen . gossiping HAHA not at all okay we're just having a lil chitchat . i bullied mirul everyday cause long time no seee buddy lets have some sweet revenge :D muahahaha *EVILLAUGH i asked him to go with me for addmaths tusyen and HE DID . haha i called him tempang all the time and laughed at him kuatkuat :/ OH YEAHHH sorry lah dude if i annoyed you too much i just ACCIDENTALLY do that tee-hee :P anyway i know that maybe esok you're gonna be back to sains muar and if you did jangan lupa to read what WAN wrote for you dlm pencilbox . bacaaa and you're gonna miss me aina and wan tro-LOLOLOL . oh not to forget mahsuri lebiuuu jugak and thanks fr the nasi goreng :P yummayhhh delicious . esah thankyou for listening into my dilemmahhh i know i can count on you . atentonten thanks fr accompanying me to lthn rmh merah and dacyn and pah and piqahh and nunad and ninot :) you girls ROCK THE WORLD *rolling eyes HAHA muahkanankiriatasbawahdepanbelakang :P oh 144 is the day thankyou  

xoxo

i love my girls demmm muchhhh boleh especially Pelam :P hihi so today nothing exciting happened actually except we all 4STA1 got BLUEBERRYCAKE *my peberettt USOPUSOP tgn gerak eh jgn lupe :P from our beloved history teacher . muah kanan muah kiri hihi thanksss :) loveee it. we ate it all together after physics class at pondok COOOOOLIO . and then i go back home with atentonten a.k.a chef milah to do our oral thingy including cik esah a.k.a dr zainab :) maybe we should change our name in a sarcastic wayyy . tro-LOLOLOL welcome to our OPAH SHOW :) fun fun fun k i dont know what else to write i should stop and do my homeworksss bubuiiii earthlings peace (Y)

p/s : i wonder whyy our teachers kindaa nice nowadays hihi . first sweets and then cakes what else next ? i'm wondering 

xoxo

here's the love story .

ATTENTION please read it and CRY . haha xP okayyy jkjkjk just cry already i know you want to :P

M : okayyy tell me about the hot story GO GO now

N : here we go there's a girl she's like "nerdy-dorky-bookworm-goodygoody-nice attitude" kind of girl okay . she's bored with the same routine over and over again EVERYDAY which is READING BOOKS

M : fuuu yeahhhh books ------> booooorrrrringgggg *annoying voice HAHA continue 

N : one day she saw a hot anddd drop dead gorgeous GUY unfortunately he's EIGHTeen and work as a builder

M : whatttttt ? handsome OMG OMGAYYYY LOL then then ?

N : he's sweet like the sweetest thing ever on earth 

M : WOWWWW jaw drop and speechless

N : haha YEAHHH one day the girl was walking home and the guy kinda like terlanggar her you know . and he said sorry over an over AGAIN until the girl smiled . since then they're kinda closed with each other 

M : waitttt waitttt the girl is like 3TEEN am i right ? 5 yearsssss older than her watteeee ? poor that child

N : HAHA she lied about her age at that dudeee , she told him that she's 6teen but she's not . you will do anything to get a guy like that even if you have to lie imma right ? :P so about that girl , her parents dont like her to have a boyfriend cause her mom gave birth to her illegally . 

M : whattttt ? bad mom evahhhhh . poor that girl again , pity pity pity her

waittt waiiit me -----> im tired to type ah bloggie . LOL lets just skip the part and continue with the sweetsawitsewetttt part kayh . DONE 

N : the damsel in distress wanna getaway with that dude like a RUNAWAY LOVE to another country and lead a happy life with him and then 

N : she felt sorry for him about the lie so she told that guy that she's only 3TEEN and not yet 6TEEN . that guy was speechless and said nothing , he said ---> go back to your parents and say that i'm truly sorry about OUR  love thing . i'm sorry but its not the right thing to do, have a happy life without me . its over with his hand patching the girl shoulder .

M : jaw drop , eyes wide open , speechless .

N : that girl said , i never really fall in love with a guy before and this feeling is kinda sweet somehow . the last thing the boy said to that girl ----> i love you and i always always do , even if this is our last conversations i will remember every moments of it and cherished it every second . baby you're the best :')

that girl cried and said ----> i know its weird but 3months later i saw him hugging another girl , i guess its her new GF but you know what i smiled instead of being jealous . 

its a true love then , if you love someone so much and care for them , you want the best for he or she even if it hurts you so much and your heart bleed . MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE :D

haihaihai OLLO anddd assalamualaikumwarahmatuAllahiwabarakatuh , jwb syg tak jwb dosaaaa :*

LOL okay i wanna start with IMISSYOUFMUCH bolehhh bloggie . meh sini meh sini alololooooo ucukkkk omel feel like i wanna hug you :P k yg tuh tipu ah kan cause you dont really even exist babe . but i wanna say it again i michuuuuuu michuuuu gonna write a lot fr today tee-hee :) nd thanks to rifqi cause you miss my bloggie much eh dude nd mahsuri too and to others who actually cared bout my daughter * upsss i mean bloggie hee . lebiuuu FRIENDS xD 

xoxo , AWSOME M is backkkkkkkkkk :P 

LOL

dear BESTFRIENDFOREVER ,

ilyforevermore remember this words ? im sorry if i hurt your feelings or do something stupid which makes you feel annoyed with me . iknow sometimes i can be OVERDOSE GEDIK laikee that . okay FINEEE not sometimes maybe everytime --' i didnt mean to hurt you even a slightest bit i swear to God . i just want US to be like we used to be, i dont want our friendship to end just like that . it has been built for years and you know how much i care for you and i would stand by you just to see you smile . any harsh words before this i didnt take it to my heart and i hope you will too . i'm definitely truly sorrrraaaayyyy if you feel like i'm better off without you or i talk to someone else and not giving you my full attention . i need you in my life okay remember that :/ please talk to me and pleaseee if i'm talking to you can you at least look at me even for a second . i know my faceee selekeh gila serabai and sawet but please i need to have an eye contact with you . i know i'm not even close to a ' perfect BFF ' , i'm not a good listener sometimes , i cant give you good advice or be a shoulder for you to lean on during good or bad times but i promise you i'll be there 24/7 if you need me . i can asure you that , PINKYPROMISE kay . i feel sad everytime i saw you laughing with others and not with ME , i feel sadder when i saw you talking to others rather than ME , i feel saddest when i scroll down and missing you everytime i look at it . there's not even a day passed by since 'we are not talking to each other moments' that i'm not missing you fyi . lets make up okay , pleaseeee just pleaseee . i dont want any bruises nor scars in your heart even mine cause it hurts a lot believe me . so i hope everything we'll be alright between us and we're gonna make it up again . BESTFRIENDSFOREVER remember :'(

p/s : its monday monday gotta be alright in monday O-JAYYY ? pelisssss :/ smile fr me babe . cheese

sincerely xoxo MariamIbrahim, 

your crazy annoying sarcastic monster. 

conversations :

If i walk, would you run

nope i would stay :)

If i stop, would you come

haha yes maybe i will .

If i say you're the one, would you believe me

the one and only YES :')

If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way

i'll show you each and every way 

Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.

just say 143 everyday :)

K and Mission Impossible

p/s : your not even close to Superman Spiderman Batman Kluangman cause your my man :)

If I walk, would you run?

If I stop, would you come?

If I say you're the one, would you believe me?

If I give you my heart, would you just play the part?

thankyou K :) xoxo

i HATE to scroll down cause i know that i'll be reading the old conversations and realized how closed we USED to be 

i need to be o-Kay now . kdonestopthanksandbyee . your not FUN enough like you always do and i will never be the BEST for you .  

i'm not coming home . i'm not staying and for sure enough i'm not beside you :/

im tired with all this bullshitt . tired of being in dilemma and stuff . tired of being stabbed in the back . tired of being ignorant . most of all im tired of you . just stop it . understand me better please . i've been there for you through good and bad times as long as i remember . where are you when i need you the most ? yeahhh  i'm all F up . i'm trying to be better but i know my better is nottt even close with you KINDNESS whatsoever . i'm a torchlight just to keep you accompany in the darkness and when you're happy say goodbye to me . NICE ONE :) i dont live to please you i have my own life so BE NICE . im not gonna run into your life anymore . HAPPY NOW ? i wanna tell you one thing . i know that people change BUT you know what i'm just tired of your change-ness and swing-ness . keep it up and the next time you look back dont even feel regret cause i'm not behind you anymore . i've been putting up with all your mood its time for you to get to know my mood now . take a great care :)

xoxo