Its been a long time since I on my laptop , check my emails and social networks , see my parents nor going out with my friends . All I've been doing is spending my precious time alone in bed since I just got back from KL and then back to Muar yesterday life has been pretty much how to say it - nice . Getting away from people as much as I could would probably be my bestest hobby right now enough said . I'm sorry if I didnt reply any texts or accept any calls not that I dont want to , its just Complicated maybe I would do it when I'm super energetic - Sorry . 

To be honest nothing seems real for me , nothing feels right or goes the way it should be But I truly am grateful each day . Thankyou Allah for being there every second when I really need You come rain or shine I can always count on You and once again I thankyou because I'm still standing here fighting everyday of my life against challenges . I am seriously absolutety aware that my school holiday will end next week which is a total #ughhhscrewme and the notbestpart is to know that 2012 will be my last year of school not that I'm unhappy of course I'm glad its just you know I cant handle big thing such as duhhh dudee -,- SPM kot so yeah I declare myself right now super freak out and definitely school cant handle awsome me *silamuntah* :P Ahh-haa one more thing I didnt buy any any I repeat ANYTHING for next year guess I'm the lamest one boo-me . I'm too lazy one word . 

I got to go and catch everything up from the beginning . Let go of everything that sickens or worrying or whatever unnecessary things I kept thinking about . I wanna go back to where it belongs , back to the time when I feel like everything in life is just perfect and it feels right , Where I dont have to worry about whats coming next about yesterday or tomorrow , Where I feel safe and secure and knowing that I did everything as best as I could - those were the days . I learnt something about life when I fell so hard I didnt even realized what's happening around me ,  life is like surfing you fell off knocked down beat up with everyone but you need to suck it all and get right back on track . Push yourself everyday cause its a ride you cant turn backwards and everything you left behind is something you couldnt take back anymore . That is how life works . Better cheerish everything before you end up losing something or someone you would never thought it would happen . Close your eyes and seek yourself through it 

xoxo,

The M