if I'm gone

This will be my 334 post since last year , one word Wow thats a lot :O haha anyway I'm gonna say this someday If I'm gone I should probably say sorry deeply and throughly for all my stupid actions and behaviour I really am no doubt . Sometimes I do things without even thinking about the outmost possible outcome and consequences , I care for people a lot than they imagined I truly do but I hurt them too with words mostly and actions specially . My apologies so if the next day I'm gone do pray for me and forgive me for what I've done doesnt matter if its the smallest or simplest thing I ever did to you . What I did wasnt really my heart desired I just did you know cause I'm a human being too I make mistakes and I messed up . So I just wanna say this again I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart , remember me and be happy . You only live once :") Oh and one more thing to my mom and dad I seriously absolutely totally love you guys like forever I wouldnt be here writing all these things , who am I without you both so I am truly grateful to have such freaking cool parents *no lies* who supports me through good and especially bad times . I cried a lot didnt I haha sorry for being such a little annoying girl I cant help it though I tried . Haa I didnt forget to my effing awsome amazingly funny and smookingly hot super supportive siblings I love you guys sibs-hugggggg forever and eternity . For my superduperlyeffinggorgeousandlovely best friends forever Iloveyougirls to infinity and beyond :') So till then , pray for me a lot .

 Al-Fatihah 

My fav song off all times :") Maroon5 - She will be loved . 

And by the way Adam Levine you're hot Kbye . I'm watching the MAMA Awards #phewww . SNSD looked extremely superhot , MissA was owneddd BIG TIME bro haha but yeah Goodbye Baby was freaking awsome . Not to forget i love Suzy and Fei right atennn high 10 babe hihi :) Superjunior can you all be mine especially Leeteuk and Kyuhyun :') Heavennnnn I tell you . BEAST looked awsomely amazing Fiction it was all fiction sadly and HyunA I'm warning you enough with Hyunseung already dont take anyone else Take note I'll fight for them real hard I tell you *jealous*. 2NE1 was cool I like Dara's hair do though and congratulationss for winning the MTV Asian Music Awards or MAMA for short . You deserved that -----> nega che chalaga wohoo thumbs up but the music video was scary though just saying :P All out Korean wave is absolutely pretty hot like hotpancakes and lemonade I tell you . Maybe some would not agree with them like the anti-fans or something , just so you know everyone has their own rights and interests so FTW grow up and accept others its not like we're doing some major mafia business by liking them , WE HAVE RIGHTS some may like other english bands and no one is stopping you so stop making fun of the korean fans . We have feelings too ya know #Peaceout . Its time for everybody to take care of their own stuff , face the differences the world is not yours only *nooffenseplease* I love both Asian and Hollywood :]

xoxo ,

M awards

So now me aten esah and pah are skype-ing :") I missed old times real hard though . but then seriously bedekak gila nak mati sampai terguling2 atas katil because of our own actions . We're planning to do a day watching movies together from horror to funny to action and lastly romance , lols . I got the funny one so yeahh me got to buy cd anything that's funny I'm planning to buy happy Feet Two but maybe Puss In Boots would make it just right . Esah got the action which is In Time heck yeahh Justin Timberlake in the house yo haha cool muchhhh . Aten got horror so she picked KumKum haha funny gilaaa sbb when we googled it klua KumKum versi Hindustan lol muchhh . To be exact KumKum Malaysia maybe keluar next year so yeahh tukar to Paranormal Activity 3 or 1 for more scarier impact . And lastly for pahpooh she got romance so all in one memang we picked twilight : Breaking Dawn . OMJ stands for Oh My Jacob isnt it lovely hihi <3 kdemhottt i tell you . Cant wait for the Part 2 next year absolutely perfect which is my SPM exam what a great timing isnt it . By the way someone is mad at me at Skype so yeah I know you'll read this . Forgive me for my imperfections I mean it I'm sorry :/ Buzz me when you're okay .

Bytheway this is gonna be a short post from me since yeahh I dont have a facebook anymore kannn so I'm telling everything every short detail of me in my blog lolssss . Chill lah at least at my blog it seems normal to talk alone rather in facebook nampak macam a lunatic pun ade . Daddy's not at home so we decide to have dinner outside me abang and mama :) Awhhh later i'll post what I'm gonna eat peace yo . Toodles 

HAHAHA --' anyway this post has nothing got to do with the above picture , but it has something got to do with my life . Practically I did say to mama that I wanna go visit haja a.k.a pinces next year anddd I did mention I dont wanna take my SPM which is a total absurd and extreme foolishness waterparkkk of course without no second thoughts my mom said NO . K im kidding K i know i'm just bluffing anyway I'm not gonna be the one that ruin my future . Hmm after all those tiring conversations and maybe just maybe mama finally said yes of letting me go alone to visit pinces in Hamburg Germany . InshAllah I really hope so :") I'm such a mess here in Johor Bahru everything seems dull sorry my bad but partly it is so true except my effing awsome friends which is a total fun to be with .

Cant believe that next year I actually am gonna take my SPM and there goes my school uniform pufff gone . No more teachers no more food to buy at sch canteen no more seniors to inspire you to go to school yaa know to tengoktengok and jadikan sumber inspirasi ke kan :P Just so you know nothing to look punnn they're all just a bunch of form 5 students being human except one year older tu jelah special nothing else and maybeee some of them are cool to look at . SOME k SOME . What the F am I talking about ? To be precise I hate getting older I hate form 5 life next year which everyone knows " The Dooms Year to Study Real Hard and Get Out of the Sch " me hate that fact . Kdone have a nice day andddd awsomely I'm chatting with atontenten a.k.a one of my BestFriendForever jgn ahhh merajuk my pweety nnt tk dpt my free hug you know you want it :P cant wait to see ya this 2nd Dec lots of kissesss . Takecare peeps 

xoxo , 

the Great M