Honestly and the truth is , I dont want someone that see's the good thing about me . I just need someone that see's the bad and still wants me . And I wont think twice about that fact . 

xXx , M

Praise be to Allah :') Assalamualaikum

It has been ages , I know . I've been keeping my distance quite far this past few months . So , yeah I deactivated my facebook account and for some reason I privated my blog . I'm trying my best to go far past my addictiveness and start a new hobby which is - Reading . Troll face please and a huge round of applause to me cause I dont read school's book that much . Trust me I only read comics :P and true story .

Uhm so what's next is school life . Pretty much hectic . I have Wan as my deskmate and Fatin plus Aneesa at front . Amira and Aqilah at my left . At Wan's right  is Piqa and Yati next to her , In front is Mahsuri and Nadhirah. 3Suara behind me and exactly beside them is 3beradik Azri Ibrahim and Azizul . Tell me again why exactly I wrote all of this. My phalanges is about to break so stop . I'm sorry for those yg tak ada dalam list I still freakinggg love my classmates all of the 5STA'ians except bushes maybe *keningkening but they're totally funny with their own attitudes . Still they're the best <3 

Uhm so next is life at home . Pretty much boring . The only child left at home is me and I'm quite happy . Cause you know uhm yeah not a clue . Im just happy being alone I guess . I can talk directly , screaming dancing singing is my part time job dkt rumah . Life is uhm ordinary :] Alhamdulillah . Le dad and mom oso okay with me being laike dat y u know cos le them lapss me beryy much . Pelat pun bolehhhh :3

Uhm so next is life for now . Currently I'm having this you know what people call it - noseee running . sore throat , cold hands and feet , to sum it all UP I have a fever . YEAHMAN (Y) in the middle of my awsome holiday for a week . Whyyyy now :'( whyyyy againn whyyyy . Nevermind , I'll be alright by tomorrow or not I wish . I'm at Muar and tomorrow baru gerak Kualalala Lumpur I guess whatever it is my parents are planning I'll go along . 

Oh and one more thing , Wannnnnn aku rindu kau . HAHAHAHA gila psycho . Thanks babe for these past few months , for being my deskmate , my oral mate , my mate and colgate tak ada kena mengena . And I miss my Pelamos Amos too . Trust me I'm not changing a bit , maybe some parts of me just realized that somehow I'm no longer needed or am I being too sensitive Muehehe I am okay I think or not . Nananana I love my LiLo - Liam and Louis . Toodles poodles earthlings , Assalamualaikum have a blast weekend :)

xoxo ,

M -..- with nose

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I was never normal . I am always the weirdest one . Yet I accept the fact that I too have flaws . So now what I'm gonna do is sit there and think . Who am I to judge you and the way you act . The time begins now and whatever happens next I have my own reason . I'm not blaming anyone I'm just being me and I mean it this time there's no turning back , I'm sorry thats all .

xoxo ,

M

Assalamualaikum . Its me writing again . Just got back from Kualalala Lumpur . Bored . Nothing much happened. I ate a lot sumpah hari hari chicken HAHA imagine mcm mana tak gemuk right haihhh . Anyway we send Eka to her practical place in Klang - checked . Hantar farouq - checked . Jumpa Mak Noi - checked . Hang around with my parents - double checked . See how I much I missed my besties :'( I'm stuck in the car for 5 hours with cramped legs and pain in the ass haha I mean I got headache as always . Nevermind its temporary inshaAllah Allah will be there always. I signed in to facebook just now and I saw this , it touched my heart . Wanna see how much it impact me ------> read this . To my beloved best friends , classmates , girlfriends and schoolmates .

Dengan nama Allah Yg Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang

Ya Allah , Panjangkanlah umur sahabatku. Kurniakanlah kesihatan yang baik padanya , terangi hatinya dengan nur pancaran iman. Tetapkanlah hatinya , perluaskanlah rezekinya , dekatkanlah hatinya kepada kebaikan , jauhkanlah hatinya pada kejahatan, tunaikanlah hajatnya baik hajat dalam agama , dunia dan akhirat .

Ya Muhaimin , Jika dia jatuh hati izinkanlah dia menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu agar tidak terjatuh dia dalam jurang cinta nafsu  , Jagalah hatinya agar tidak berpaling daripada melabuhkan hatinya pada hati-Mu. Jika dia rindu , rindukanlah dia pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan-Mu.

Ya Allah , Jangan biarkan sahabatku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kejalan-Mu , jika kau halalkan aku merindui sahabatku , janganlah aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan daku pada cinta hakiki , rindu abadi dan kasih sejati hanya untuk-Mu.

Ya Allah , kurniakanlah sahabatku kesenangan , ketenangan , kecemerlangan dan hidayah dari-Mu dalam menempuh cabaran serta liku-liku hidup di dunia dan di akhirat kelak .  inshaAllah 

I know I didnt wrote this du'a but I pray for them in my own ways for sure . I want the best for you guys as much as I loved them . And ustazah did say something to me , tak kan nak masuk syurga sorang sorang kan bagus kalau ada kawan . Plus a friend du'a is among the best and will be granted inshaAllah God knows . I hope this year 2012 will bring us peace and prosperity . When I said I'll be there I keep my promise so I'll stay beside them whenever they want me to and I'll go if they ask me to . I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone , any heart feelings , words unspoken , hatred , jealousy , my attitude and my flaws definitely . I'm sorry for being me and I cant blame anyone . Never in my heart to hurt the people around me, I tried my very best till now to please everyone to make them feel comfortable to make sure they're happy and I hope you guys are . So there it goes , please accept my apology if you ever come across reading this by accident . 

Goodnight universe may Allah bless you . Alhamdulillah :')

Much love , M