See there the post title . So clearly this is the worst night ever somehow :'( Wipe the tears away it doesnt matter . I prepared everything , I wanted so much to talk to you but then as usual part of me just didnt have the guts to spill any words at all . So close yet so far that's the word to explain . Couldnt even start any conversation for 2 long hours . Packed my things and I seriously wanted to give you the present I spent weeks and weeks talking bout it to Hajar but you know what you didnt even looked at me for one second . Minus that part , you didnt even wait oh yeah wait who am I , again . I didnt even exist I think for that moment . I shouted your name it didnt came out somehow it stucked because I've never been the best with my mouth try to say smart but the dumb comes out . Know what even hurts - watching your back and you're not looking back . But I did and you didnt so there goes the shit pouring out . Two words I'm sorry . I said that a lot and keep saying it till now but here we are in two different dimensions different situations to handle with different feelings . If this is how it's gonna be , maybe I am wrong . Maybe we should stay this way . Maybe things went wrong . Maybe fate wasnt on our side . Maybe I wasnt that important . At all . I think . So . Yeah cut deeper . I wouldnt mind and you dont care . One thing left is Happy Birthday . I couldnt even say it up front nor call cause that would take a lot of courage and I dont have that now . Hope you'll be reading this if somehow I came across your mind . Godblessyou
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