Everything changed so quick :" One second it was like this and next it was like that and it goes on and on . I'm tired and i need some rest . I dont care anymore and please just leave me alone fr the time being I'm sickkk faham tak ? Come on fight for it why is everyone making it harder each time . Aliah i'm so glad you're there I can count on you and truely Iloveyoufromthebottomofmyheart :" 

Ya Allah guide me through all of these through sickness and through health help me to face everything be with me every second I'm begging you Ameen .