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Mariam Ibrahim . Seventeen . Young and Immature . Silly girl who spills every part of her life written here rather than sharing it to others who act like they even care . Broken and shattered to pieces . Daddy's girl and Mommy's heart . Stop being nice to me if you're just faking it i'm sick of all the drama's . Not a big fan of books. Chocolate really makes me feel better . The Moon describes me perfectly cause people dont really notice me but i'm always there . I'm awsomely good in giving others advice but when it comes to me imma failure . What is written here stays here . Everybody has their own secret and me too so deal with it .

September 05, 2011

maybe you're not going to read this i supposed after all the things that happened to us , i'm so sorry from the bottom of my heart to the core . guess we have nothing else besides memories . goodluck in the future eventhough for you its a small world you'll find somebody perfect someday .
muchlove , M

August 23, 2011


all i wanna do is cry until my heart explode and there's nothing left but memories . 
i'm a big big girl in a big big world its not a big big thing if you leave me . 
i guess i'm not that strong enough to hide my feelings . #immafailure
lets hide all these shit and put that smile on your face M . 
be strong , sincerely myself :) 


xoxo 
loser M

August 21, 2011

knock knock who's there ?

YEAYYYY ME ! K iamsolameiknowshutupgetlost :P #jk peace boys and girls

so today is Sunday and last night was 21st Ramadhan , some said that last night was ' Malam Lailatul Qadar ' and when i heard about that my heart stops beating cause i'll never know when can i meet Ramadhan again :'( who knows right maybe i wont be here writing to my bloggie again . my mind starts thinking what if i cant meet Ramadhan next year and all the thoughts just wont stop coming like a fountain or something . see thats why i hate my brain sometimes they cant think clearly and all the negative thoughts starts to whisper like when you wanna do something bad and it drives you crazy . so lets just think positive about it .

my newly newly newly azam for this Ramadhan and next year which i'm gonna take SPM ? what theeee ? #Klame its too early isnt it . here it goes :- fyi dont read it cause you might get sick :P haha

1. i want to respect the people who respect me first and forget about those who forget me :') sorry peeps if you wannabe in someone's life you just have to put a lot of effort in it so that there's a place guaranteed fr you in their heart same goes to me tadaaaa dooms . #anywho dont break the trust the people had give in to you cause if you did just shoot yourself in the head . K-idding dont do that please just change yourself to the better , people will like that *swear to God .

2. i want to treat people the same way i want to be treated like #humanity . i wanna love my family even more even sometimes i feel neglected , hurt , torn apart , leftover , blahblahblah and that kind of stuffs which is sensitive for me to write *i might be crying like a child LOL grow up M you're so not a baby but okay lah a sweet salty smelly baby yang dah besar and she's gonna be sixteeen haha . i wanna grow my love even more to my PELAMOVE my babiesss awhhh , my classmates you guys awsomely rock , my friends yang superly duperly makes me smile . yes i wanna do that i wanna love my peeps oh yeahhh #loveisintheair .

3. last but not least , i want to do some self-reflection to myself . K sometimes i have the lazy feeling to study , get over moody or upset people if they see me HAHA things like this have to absolutely change FULLSTOP . anyway hope to see the better me insyaAllah , more to the Islamic way rather than the all duniawi stuffs aminnnn :) praying hard to kejar the malam lailatul qadar malam *1000 bulan which i have calculated using a calculator haha , equals to 83 tahun beribadah . i aint know when or how long i get to live in this world so i am trying my best effort to meet this LailatulQadar aminyarabbalamin . may Allah bless me and to all the muslims throughout the world :')

pray hard for me in you du'a please :') Allah will repay your kindness towards me and and we'll be siblings eventho you dont know me or you hate me badly *ouchhh it hurts :P but muslims are somehow related right so do pray cause Allah will always be there when the rest of the world ignores you . Alhamdulillah and i am glad to say that I am a Muslim which may not be a perfect one but trying to be one .

words of wisdom :
there are many ways to die but there is only one way to live 

and that is the way i wanna live my life to the fullest . aint no shit gonna come in my way HAHA ksorry #disgusting . have a nice day Happy Fasting and maybe some of you still searching for baju raya or waiting for your tailor to do it like me sheeshh patience please . good luck and hoping that you'll be sangat anggun cun bergaya dan VOGUE di pagi raya :') teehee peace be upon you


 















August 13, 2011


okay fine sumpah aku tipu kalau aku tak terasa apa yang kau dah buat eventho you didnt mean to but you have the intention to do so am i right ? you know the real story and now you're looking at me AS IF there's nothing wrong . oh fyi i can not forget eventho i tried real hard cause you're my friend or should i say classmate -.- K at least i can pretend i dont care AT ALL . 
congrats and i am happy fr you .

 

btw :- you'll never know how much it breaks 
and torns me apart inside .

sincerely ,
M hearts .